So this is it?

Good morning, everyone.

I just wanted to write and let you all know to expect me on a break until about the 27th/ 29th of April. I will still be choosing and announcing the winner to my Birthday Cake Beauty Giveaway on April 22nd in the morning on all Facebook fan pages, Twitter, and right here on the blog, so be sure to tune in and see if you're the winner!

So this is it... eh? I'm turning 19 years old. It seems like just a year ago I was turning 16. Where did the time go? I really wish I could slow things down. I wish I could make it all last forever. I am having a hard time coming to grips with letting the past go and moving on to new things.

I have a video monitoring EEG on the 23rd (right after my birthday... what a bummer!) which will last God knows how long. I once had one for over 6 days, so it depends. But I doubt it will be more than two days because unfortunately my seizures are no longer being controlled by my medication. I'm on a larger dose of Klonopin (which usually calms them) but they only get worse as the hours pass. I have been having more complex partial seizures than ever before, and almost had a grand mal today but my breathing techniques slowed it down.

I will try my best and keep everyone updated while I am in the hospital, but I cannot guarantee as the whole point of having me there is to induce as many seizures as we can. I'm actually fearful of this EEG for the first time in my life. I never really took my other EEG's seriously and went into the hospital fearless. But I am scared and nervous at the same time this time around.

My handsome boyfriend is going to come visit me, which I'm half happy about and half embarrassed about since I will look like crap. But he's seen me looking pretty crappy before, and he still loved me then. He's such a great guy and I'm blessed to have found him!

When I get home and everything calms down I will write a blog on how it all went and keep you all in the loop, because I know so many of you are anxious to know what is happening next in my life. But for now, let's pretend like today is never ending and live it to the fullest... Shall we?

Anyway, wish me luck and keep me in your prayers.