Early Morning Blog

Good morning everyone!


It's about 9:00am over here in San Antonio, and I've been up since 7:00. Didn't get any sleep at all until 5:00am so I'm seriously hoping that I don't have a seizure at work today. I already feel "weird" and that's not good. Unfortunately, I work a job where I have no one to cover my shifts. So I'm out of luck as far as that goes.


I had another one of those 18 year old arguments with the parents this morning. The ones that would usually go something like... "I didn't do anything wrong!". Although, I did. And at least I admitted that I did - I've become that mature. I still could have gone without being waken up this way. They know I've been sick and that I've needed sleep. I've noticed my family respecting my seizures less and less lately...

I have been having these odd seizures again. Very different than my usual seizures. These are ones that leave me more confused, and start with more colorful auras beforehand. Reminds me a lot of the types that I had when I was just developing Epilepsy - Back when my Epilepsy was at its very worst.


I am starting to sit in a little bit of fear. I hate being this way, and I'm constantly helping others get out of the fear they sit in. That's my job as EpilepsyBlogger, after all. But these new seizures are just shaking me up a little. They are more unexpected than usual, and the aura is so short that I don't even consider it a warning. By the time I notice the aura, the seizure starts. Therefore, I'm anticipating a Grand Mal any day now.

Aside from my seizure status, I'd better get going. Gonna go make myself some french toast and some decaf coffee. That will hopefully wake me up and nourish me enough so that I don't get too sick at work. I have a date with my darling, Rafael, tonight. So I really can't afford to be sick. (But then again, when did Epilepsy ever care if we had a hot date or not?) Nonetheless, wish me luck and no seizures today! I will need all the luck I can get!


God bless,
Mandy Krzywonski
EpilepsyBlogger


P.S. - Stay tuned for part two of Married... with Epilepsy: Mark & Malorie and be sure to tweet what you're doing for the Superbowl @EpilepsyBlogger so you can see your tweet on my blog this Sunday!