Graduation Party (So many mixed feelings!)

Hello all,

This past Saturday was my graduation party. I honestly expected it to be a really laid back evening, but it definitely went the opposite way. Don't get me wrong, I had fun - but it was no doubt more work than play. We had it at a pretty nice place called Mi Casa Tamales Restaurant and Cantina.

It was lovely outdoors, but the Texas heat was enough to put anyone in the hospital! I am very glad that it didn't rain. This past Friday I noticed the clouds passing through and I had this overwhelming feeling (and a little bit of a hopeful feeling as well) that it was going to rain. Overwhelming because I thought "It had better not rain at my party!" and hopeful because it is dry as a desert outside!

Half of the party goers came in shorts and t-shirts, and I thought that they must be underdressed. The rest of the party goers and I quickly realized how over-dressed we were. It was so hot, and so sweaty that we were just about to die. Thankfully the restaurant kept the iced tea and ice cold water steady, and the cantina was open throughout the night to keep everyone hydrated with ice cold beers and margaritas.

Everyone claimed they had a lovely night, but I couldn't be more sure that people were bored to death! Probably because I hardly got more than 5 minutes to talk to each table. So many people were invited and so many people showed up unexpectedly throughout the night. It's a good thing that there was enough food to keep most people busy.

I, unfortunately, did not get to taste my party food or eat my party cake until days later. This was a bummer considering I starved the night before and all that day to be able to "pig out". At least Mi Casa Tamales was kind enough to send us home with 4 HUGE to-go boxes of food. And when I say huge, I mean enough to host another party. I've been indulging all day!

Me and my sweet boyfriend Rafael. Ignore how horrible I look in the Texas humidity and heat.

My sister Jessica and her boyfriend Justin about to share a dance

Rafael, Me, My good friend Jocy and her boyfriend

Me and the main party cake which I never got to taste

My party cake up close. Very cute with the school colors :)

Me and my boyfriend (finally) having a good time and dancing!

My mum (far left) and her friend from work with her daughter

My father, who talked the band into letting him play me a few songs! He played a song to me by Eric Clapton called "Wonderful Tonight" that he used to play to me as a little girl. He even substituted my name and I was bawling like a baby. So cute!

 So overall, the night was very memorable and people had a good time. The only issue was that I haven't been sleeping (the insomnia is back) and when I got home I was cranky and very distressed. The depression has been getting me bad lately and I cried until 5 am for no reason whatsoever. I honestly don't consider it actual depression, but I know the stress brought that on.

The night before I had actually had some bad depression issues which lead to me making drastic changes to myself. I hadn't slept and I had decided to cut and color my hair at 5:00 in the morning because I was upset with my appearance.

I have been dropping significant weight these past two weeks. For me, the gaining has been horrible for two years now. No matter how much I diet, the weight piled on. Then, all of the sudden it's just dropping. I stopped getting hungry, and I stopped wanting to eat.

All of these things (cutting hair, changing appearance, no eating, losing weight) was the usual for me back in the days when my stress and depression was at its worst, and I'm surprised I didn't stop myself right then and there. It's just so hard to control sometimes. I think the fact that my seizures are coming back is making it all harder to control as well.

I thank God for having the sweetest boyfriend who was willing to sit up with me and let me cry it all out. I don't think I could have been more blessed to have a wonderful family that organized a great party, and a sweet, loving boyfriend to get me through those hard nights. It's very hard to last all day at a party when you have Epilepsy. Even the smallest things can stress you out.

I raked in a good $600, two beautiful rings, a gorgeous watch and a bracelet from James Avery. Not to mention some nice gift cards and a million sweet congratulations. I'm so glad people loved me enough to come and be with me and that special night. Even if it was stressful at some points, it was worth the memories.

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Well, I hope all is well with my readers and to those with Epilepsy, I hope you have the best of health. God bless everyone and goodnight!

Sincerely,

Mandy Krzywonski

(EpilepsyBlogger)

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