My totally awesome strawberry cupcakes (yes, it's hard to believe, but I managed to make these look pretty).
Thanks for all the feedback via e-mail, BlogCatalog, Facebook, Twitter, and right here on Blogger, of course. I apologize for not being able to get back to everyone as fast as I would like to. Apart from all the anxiety attacks I've mentioned, I came down with a virus or "cold," if that's what you call it - and it was horrible. I couldn't even walk I was so sick! Thankfully, it progressed fast and left just as fast. I still have a horrible dry, hacking cough that hasn't gone away. I owe it all to hot tea, steamy showers, sleeping in, and and the dozens of medications I took (which probably wasn't too good but I was in desperate need!).
I'm pretty positive I either picked it up from one of Sullivan's (my boyfriend) friends or someone at work...though, I'm honestly not sure who that would be and how that would happen. I'm a total germaphobe at work. Last time I went in to work I must have seen a hundred people stocking up on cold medicine and Vicks because their children had strep throat! Can you believe that? It's pretty much summer right now and kids are contracting winter viruses! My immune system must suck more than I thought because my boyfriend hasn't come down with anything yet.
The anxiety itself has quieted down for the last two days. I didn't talk to my boyfriend much because he worked, so I think it cleared up the sort of grudge we had between us. I guess I would call it more of a frustration because we didn't exactly want to be holding a grudge. I've had some time alone to rest my mind and spend time with my two dogs since I've been sick and couldn't leave the house at all. I wont doubt it if the attacks come back, but I'm positive they couldn't be any worse than the ones I was having previously.
A little update on my seizures - I have not yet had a big seizure a.k.a. "grand mal" seizure. As I mentioned before, I'm back up to 75% of my prior dosage, rather than being at about 1/3. I started to notice too many auras and visual seizures, and to be completely honest with you, I was scared out of my mind at the thought of another grand mal. Now that I'm back up on my meds, I rarely have to use my magnet but maybe once a day. I also test the VNS every once in a while because I've gotten so used to it that I seriously can't even tell if it's really on! This is probably a good thing but it bothers me. I'm the kind of person who always ends up with broken electronics.
Take my cell phone for example. I bought a Palm Pre Plus for my birthday on April 21st. I had to get a replacement two days later because the hardware was defective. Here I am on the 15th of June and the third phone that I just turned on 4 days ago is messed up as well. I treat these phones like newborn children. I would rather have a crappy Samsung flip phone. You can drop those things off the 13th floor of a building and I guarantee you'll at least still be able to use it. I still have one somewhere in this house and I might just re-activate it soon.
Yes, I've realized that this blog doesn't have more than a small paragraph about Epilepsy...but hey, it's my life :). Gotta love it. Plus, I'm bored out of my mind. The twins are running around the house half naked because they were doing god-knows-what with water. I'll probably have to go clean something up, but why not stall a little? It's summer.
At the moment I'm actually checking out Texas Tech University. I'm starting online classes soon and I'm trying to figure out which ones I'm taking. That way, I can catch up on what I've missed and start on extra classes on campus next year that can go toward college. I'm going to take some business classes because my dream is to own a bakery! I thought about the whole "chef" thing, like owning an actual restaurant...but eh. Who doesn't own a restaurant anymore? If you live in San Antonio, you know what I'm talking about. I have at least 7 friends that I can name whose parents own a restaurant, whether it be a successful one or not. But who knows. I could do it if I wanted to. Maybe a restaurant/bakery? I'm just freaking out because I'm trying to figure out my career options so I'm going to stop blogging now before I seriously go on and on and on and on and bore you to death.
I hope you all have a blessed day and sorry for this horribly boring life of mine!
- Mandy Krzywonski
It doesn't exactly sound like a boring life! Difficult, but not boring. Hang in there, girl. You're on Jen's prayer list.
ReplyDeleteYou don't have to decide what you want to do too early. That's what the first two years of college is for, a professor once told us. You take your basics while you enjoy college life as you decide. Then the last two years are devoted to your major. Good post!
ReplyDeleteNah its not boring , you're just getting on with being you - wish you all the best with the college plans!
ReplyDeleteThose silver beads make it look appealing.
ReplyDeleteSome type of writing don't bore people. Yours is one of them.